Busy...as I tend to be.

[parasitegirl]

Tonight I met with Eva in Matsudo about the studio contract and such, but I have begged off of doing a full dinner. Today I tackled most of the email backlog and narrowed down music choices for the live show in October…and, yeah, made appointments at two different psychiatric clinics (to shop around) one this Thursday and one next Wednesday.

One of the (many) problems with depression is my inability to determine when I legitimately need to
rest/take a night off for things and when it is just the lethargy talking me into not moving.There is no doubt my tendency to stay busy is a key way that I manage depression issues, but it's also a coping technique that has the risk of making the lows more difficult and pronounced if they reach a certain level.

Tonight I think it is both. I'm going to be lazy tonight. I am justifying it with the fact that I have been actively vacationing for a week. Being in charge of the language/transportation issues wore me out beyond the usual relationship issues of traveling together and the issues of reuniting after a 8 month break.

I figure I can prep for Tuesday's lessons in the reserved-for-us spare room at work on Tuesday. I know this cuts it close, but I will have 7 hours and that is more than enough.

Tuesday night: Teaching in Nishi-azabu.

Wednesday: Meeting with Eva AND Mona. Mona is a local bi-lingual dancer who has lived a fair amount in Europe. She and I got acquainted on Facebook by both responding to the "Dancers in Egypt shouldn't badmouth Egypt" debacle by both speaking out about the need to be able express negativity at times when living in a second culture. She flipped through my FB photos and It turned out she'd seen me dance at the Aziza show years ago. She is interested in having me dance at one of her shows and Eva is coming to facilitate the live "us meeting" experience I guess.

Thursday; Into Tokyo for Psych stuff!

Friday: Prep for three Saturday morning classes.

Saturday: Teach…maybe go to see a Cirque show after as a reward.

Sunday evening: There's a studio hafla in Matsudo I am dancing in as an instructor.

Holy shit. I am busy. Yeah. There's no way I can handle all of this if the depression continues or escalates. Even if I get on medications soon it's gonna be a bit of a challenge to stay at this pace while waiting for medicine to take effect.

I don't know when I will be able to fit in the workouts this week it might be best to let it slide while I acclimate and focus on dance practice instead and phase in the short workouts next week. I know I need to get back into cooking and working out soon because I know that helps my mental state.

Comments

[suzycat.livejournal.com]

You ARE busy and I get that you have difficulty working out when to keep going and when to take a needed break. WHAT IF you scheduled chillout time?

I agree about pulling back a little on the workouts when you're so physically busy.

[parasitegirl.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty good about taking time when I need to be quiet and chill.

If I can get one of the free seats in the sound booth at Cirqu de Solei on Saturday that WILL be my me-date-for-me reward for getting through the next few days.

[suzycat.livejournal.com]

That would be COOLNESS.

[tiffanyharvey.livejournal.com]

I hope one of the clinics is a good fit!

I just found out that you know someone on Bhuz that I was good friends with in college. Her name is Jenn, dancer name Genevieve. (I've been catching up with her again recently)

Thanks

[(Anonymous)]

Appreciate this update very much. MOO

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[(Anonymous)]

Very much appreciate the update. Much love, MOO
Sorry if this is a repeat, the secret code words were more psychedelically displayed than usual. Love, MOO

[dina farmer (from livejournal.com)]

Taking a break from working out actually helps you than hinders you. When you get back into working out you'll feel stronger and refreshed. My personal trainer has told me to take at least a week off every quarter of the year to give my body time to heal and get stronger. Of course with this baby I've been taking more frequent breaks....but I'll be working hard just like you in about four months. P90X style.

It is good to be busy and I'm glad that you have so much on your plate that way when you are vacationing your are really taking a break you know?