parasitegirl | 100 Days of Goodbyes, Day 48-49: HAHAHA balcony.

That stuff I said about the anxiety spikes being gone? Not so much correct.

Thursday after work I got a HUGE dose of it. "OMG, MY HEART IS BEATING SO FAST" kinda fun. Like someone gave me speed but forgot to include the feeling of boundless un-earned confidence.

The timing wasn't bad though. I had dance classes to teach but I was up-to-date on my choreography stuff.

But...well...as you can see I attacked the balcony. Better it than some poor sod who doesn't deserve it.

Today, still in that mild frenzy, I did change asthma-allergy doctors. I'd taken the day off, albeit unpaid...because doctor hunting is always anxiety-inducing on the best of days and there is nothing for me to do at work right now.

I continue to look forward to non-recyclable plastic trash day (Monday!) because I hit the studio AND my balcony hard today. I will be able to get a table and chair out there!

This corner is still cluttered...but I washed my elephant!

Aaaaaaawww yeah. My shoulders are in pain from hauling "PLAATTA floor decking from Ikea" (I will eventually go back for the table and chair, TÄRNÖ ) because I have no car and the shipping isn't swift...but I no longer have the never-clean nubbly texture issue of my balcony. SWEET.

The planter on the ground will have to go, just not enough space, but I have enough planter options and I will be attaching more planters to the edges of my balcony....like that mint you see. Mint needs to be separated so it doesn't take over anyway.

I could have made a wall planter...but there's enough people on Instructables who seem ok with the use of shoe-holders for planters. I don't expect it to last beyond a season. It might get so yucky that I have to scream "FUCK IT" but if so, I can deal with it....anything is better than the year I had a maggot-infestation-drainage issue.

Now is nap time. Anxiety means that I didn't sleep well and woke early. There's a studio meeting tonight so a nap will have to suffice