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parasitegirlMay or may not be triggery. I touch on the aftermath of city-located truamas.
There are a lot of on-line fights that result in people saying "Well, stop finding triggers everywhere." Those people don't get the fact that no one who has been through anything traumatic looks for triggers. Triggers aren't waiting to be found, they come and find you.
I was reading an account from one of the runners in the Boston Marathon. It wasn't someone who saw the explosions, he was on mile 17…and I got half way through before I cried.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/michaellevin/boston-marathon-witness-bombing_b_3088320.html
It was this line:
"I walked about a mile, still in my race gear, through a deserted city.I walked about a mile, still in my race gear, through a deserted city."
And that's what brought back the quake.
I'm sure it's a reaction I share with everyone who has experienced some sort of city-located trauma, be it man-made or an act of nature. Those of us who live in cities ( especially those with major transportation systems) know what it is like to be near people almost as soon as we leave our houses. After a storm, a quake, a shooting, or bombing things stop, people stay inside, the streets are quiet in ways we haven't experienced before. That silence haunts. It hurts to know that people are walking on empty roads and perhaps feeling something similar in the aftermath.
My heart goes out to Boston. I cannot fathom the degree of horror experienced by those who were there. I know nothing in my life has been that painful and I am thankful for that.
There will be time enough for folks to unwind theories and discuss conspiracies and rail against what may or may not happen now.
Just know, Boston friends, I am glad you are ok. It's normal for this to hit you in ways and times you don't expect. It's not fun and sometimes it might feel insane…but it's a process and it's >your< process. Don't let anyone be bossy about how you should be reacting. Take care.
There are a lot of on-line fights that result in people saying "Well, stop finding triggers everywhere." Those people don't get the fact that no one who has been through anything traumatic looks for triggers. Triggers aren't waiting to be found, they come and find you.
I was reading an account from one of the runners in the Boston Marathon. It wasn't someone who saw the explosions, he was on mile 17…and I got half way through before I cried.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/michaellevin/boston-marathon-witness-bombing_b_3088320.html
It was this line:
"I walked about a mile, still in my race gear, through a deserted city.I walked about a mile, still in my race gear, through a deserted city."
And that's what brought back the quake.
I'm sure it's a reaction I share with everyone who has experienced some sort of city-located trauma, be it man-made or an act of nature. Those of us who live in cities ( especially those with major transportation systems) know what it is like to be near people almost as soon as we leave our houses. After a storm, a quake, a shooting, or bombing things stop, people stay inside, the streets are quiet in ways we haven't experienced before. That silence haunts. It hurts to know that people are walking on empty roads and perhaps feeling something similar in the aftermath.
My heart goes out to Boston. I cannot fathom the degree of horror experienced by those who were there. I know nothing in my life has been that painful and I am thankful for that.
There will be time enough for folks to unwind theories and discuss conspiracies and rail against what may or may not happen now.
Just know, Boston friends, I am glad you are ok. It's normal for this to hit you in ways and times you don't expect. It's not fun and sometimes it might feel insane…but it's a process and it's >your< process. Don't let anyone be bossy about how you should be reacting. Take care.
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Date: 2013-04-17 11:06 am (UTC)I don't use the word trigger to describe things like that; "trigger" tends, to me, to mean a Bad Thing and it's not a bad thing to see footage of prequake Chch in a movie, or a video, or a documentary about the 1981 Springbok Tour. I don't even think it is a bad thing to cry about it. You just accept that other people don't get it.
I really hate the sound of car alarms, they remind me of it a lot.
Happy 21st birthday!
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